Sleepless Nights
Lying awake every night,
Memories start flooding back.
Wondering about the past,
Worrying about the future,
Losing grip of the present.
Every night the same nightmares,
Tossing and turning for hours,
Trying to switch off these thoughts.
Life as made overthinkers,
And insomniacs of us all.
Life goes on,
Never stopping for anyone.
Once in a while,
You can’t help but wonder,
If things hadn’t changed.
A deep-seated need to reconnect,
An emotion you cannot comprehend.
You can only wish for another chance,
Make things right but you can’t.
This is a part of the journey,
Even if you don’t like it.
From the moment we met,
My heart became happy.
The way you smiled at me shyly,
Made my days colorful.
Just being around you was enough,
No need for empty words.
Knowing you for a short while,
Yet it left a mark on me.
I still think about your smile,
And the way your eyes brightened.
Those smiles made my heart flutter,
Like they were reserved only for a few.
I will always wonder about your smiles,
Were those smiles for everyone or just for me?
One day at a time,
Such a novel notion.
It seems so simple,
But it never is.
How can you not worry?
How can you not think?
Future. Past. Present.
All thoughts at once.
How to stop? How to let go?
One day at a time,
Easier said than done.
You can say you know a person,
but it’s not true.
You can never really know someone,
People keep changing.
It doesn’t matter if you have known them for a year,
a month or all your life.
When the time comes,
You realize,
You never really knew them at all,
you just thought you did.
Behind the Walls.
Spending every day with walls around my heart,
Now for you, I was ready to knock them off,
With you, everything seems easy even the quiet.
I wanted to let you know how you affect me,
But the walls made me pause,
I wanted you to knock them down for me,
then you would finally see me, the real me.
It was my favorite daydream,
You would be mine and I yours,
No walls, no pretenses, just us,
And happy endings.
Wish
I wish I could tell you,
What you mean to me.
I wish I could tell you,
That you are constantly on my mind.
I wish there was way to tell you,
How I feel about you and,
How much I actually care,
Without ever losing you.
I wish I could pour my heart out,
If it made you stay.
I wish I could tell you,
Everything you make me feel,
But I can’t,
I can only wish.
Lost
Lost in the void,
A place deep within,
Felt something was amiss.
Lost in the void,
The tunnel grew darker and melancholic.
Stuck without any light,
Wanted to stop or be stopped,
It was nothing but false hope.
The void grew bigger as did the darkness,
And with no way out,
The battle was lost.
Broken Dreams
So many plans and dreams about life,
All came crashing down.
One minute it was within reach and
The next it was gone.
Now the search begins again,
To find new dreams.
Though been fooled once before,
The silly heart still hopes.
In My Dreams
In my dreams I always find you,
Though in reality we are far apart.
In my dreams everything about us is rosy,
In reality it is grim.
I find a place to belong in my dreams,
Because I always end up in your arms.
Only in my dreams, you are mine,
And I am yours.
